Dear Adderall,

When I’m feeling helpless, you’re the first one I turn to. I’ve found nothing is impossible when we’re together. Thank you for encouraging me to invest fully in every task I take on. You keep me engaged. When I am tired, you lift me out of my fatigue. You help me study, keep me organized, and push me to complete even the most mundane tasks. Only you can make even the most dull information fascinating. Everything makes sense when you’re with me.

But I must confess, I’m unhappy with our relationship. When we’re good, we’re great. You make my heart race, you help me concentrate on whats important. Yet, every time you stop working on us I find myself at an all time low. I am left with no appetite, I have barely eaten in days. I lay awake in bed at night. When I finally fall asleep, I find myself waking up throughout the night. All I can do is drown you out with wine or pot. My mind is exhausted, but it keeps racing anyways. Why can’t I stop thinking. My throat is dry and I can’t seem to form complete sentences. I feel numb to emotion. You have me avoiding social situations like the plague.

This has been the most productive relationship I’ve ever had. Still, we find ourselves sitting in silence; our wide eyes capable of nothing but blank stares. I think you and I need to go on a break, but it’ll have to wait until after finals.

xoxo