Today we finalized our decision to push our wedding back a year. If someone told me this right after we got engaged, I would have assumed something terrible happened in our relationship. That’s what you immediately think of when someone pushes back their wedding date. But in this case, as with many other people, we are pushing it back due to a global pandemic.

Incase you’re wondering, we are going to still aim to get legally married on our planned date. After all, there is a huge discrepancy in the quality of our health insurance.

I knew, for about a month now, that my Miami Bachelorette party in June probably wouldn’t happen. I didn’t feel confident letting my mom plan a bridal shower for me in August. Taylor Swift cancelled LoverFest.

We are moving out of our NYC apartment on 6/1 and living in my hometown in Massachusetts for the summer. Our September wedding would have been 3 weeks after we (hopefully) move back to the city. That’s a lot to handle.

We are lucky enough that at least until the end of June we are living in a cute little beach house in Brant Rock. Our dog is absolutely loving her life. She doesn’t know what she did to get so lucky. I’ve been able to spend more time with my family than I have in about 10 years. I hired my sister as my personal trainer.

I am finding it really difficult to get through life with so much uncertainty. I’m tired because i’m working harder than ever at work, always afraid of the potential of unemployment. I’m lucky enough to love my job in the midst of all this, but none the less– I am not one of those people baking bread and catching up on Netflix.

The one thing we could guarantee for ourselves was the peace of mind of not getting married this year.

No need to rush to find bridesmaids dresses, nothing to fear about getting my dress altered. No need to order invitation samples that, I should have ordered months ago (sorry Mom!!)

With each additional vendor that has been available on our new wedding date I have felt like a brick has been taken off my chest. Now that everything is settled, I feel free of a huge burden. Highly recommend if you find yourself in this same position.

To think I was so set on a 2020 wedding! It seems comical at this point. Married at 27, a baby by 29(?)! I was hoping for a buffer year in between marriage and the carriage, but you really can’t plan anything anymore.

I don’t know where I’ll be living in 6 months. But I know that Ben and Sophie will be there with me, and so for now i’m ok.

I guess all you really need is love.